So my week in review-did I accomplish everything I set out to do? Yes, and no. Monday went well and I wrote…a lot. My little one came home sick from school later that afternoon-and by nightfall-I was sick! She got well the next day-me, I have been sick ALL WEEK. I thought it was just a 24 hour thing-nope. I tried to work but noticed I wasn’t doing too good of a job so I stopped. What a week to get sick-I guess it was good that I was home.
I talked to my boss yesterday-my nice one. We have always gotten along great and I don’t have any problems with her-except when I am kept in the dark about important things-like uh, like losing my job! So basically it seems the daughter has no desire to do my job or whatever. They created another job there for her. So I am safe-for now. Shouldn’t I be happy about that? Well, I really am not. You know why? Because after facing the possibility of losing my job and seeing how disposable I am- I’m not feeling too good about the whole deal.
After speaking to several people about my situation this past week-I was kind of bothered that most of them could not believe I was not begging to keep my job! Since so many of them have been laid off, out of work-whatever, I guess I could see their point. So taking what I do just for a “steady” paycheck is something I should want to fight for? In the past I would’ve probably answered yes to that question-but not now.
The only really good advice I got about all this was from the comments I got here, from other people who have been in debt like me, and my husband and daughters. Of course, these are the same people that have been there with me through it all…the good-the bad-the ugly.
This has me torn. I agreed to go back to work Monday, but I just don’t know. I wish, I wish, I wish that I did not get sick this week so I could have brought home the same pay-if not more, to prove to myself that I can do it at home. I also wish I could get over my fear of…change. I think in the back of my mind I am a little scared of failing and if I fail-we could end up right back where we were-in debt and struggling.
I got some decisions to make before Monday. For now though, I am off to burn the midnight oil and meet some deadlines!
I understand completely but……….. me? I take the sure thing for now! lol – no more gambling!! I really really dislike my job too and I know the ONLY REASON I AM HERE is because I am dependable and show up every day. I have been here 10 years and thru numerous management and these are the worst. Everything is about “their own” people but…….. it is a job and I need to work so…………..here I am.
I try and have a positive attitude and some days it works and some days not. You on the other hand are in a different situation and younger so you do have more options. I just feel that we “have to do what we have to do” and hopefully some day we can do “what we WANT to do”!!!
Whatever your decision, I wish you the absolute best!!!
Yeah I know what you mean…
I usually never complain openly about my job but lately I am finding myself on here frequently releasing it all-hey it helps! lol
I have thought about this a lot today-especially when I got the email making sure I was feeling better and if I was coming to work Monday…
The way this economy is right now has me scared. I remember what it was like when my husband was without work for a while and how hard it was for us. That is what scares me. Yes, luckily for me I have other work to fall back on and right now it can keep me busy for a while. Will it stay that way? I don’t know. I hate to live life on the edge like that. I know they say the people that do-are usually the ones that succeed in life. Gosh, I wish I could be one of those people. I mean how will you know if you can succeed at something or not if you don’t try?
I just don’t know…I got a few more days to think about it.
Have a fabulous weekend. Looks like we may have some nice weather here too.
hey gnd,
I’m finally getting around to catching up on some blog reading, sounds like your handling the situation OK, good luck with the freelancing, I might send you some info later this week
Hi Louise!
I left you a comment at your “new home”. I am glad you are back, but sad to read your last post about your health. I can not believe how long this sickness has stuck around.Please take care of yourself.