So how are things going since my last update? Ya know, they are going OK. I am feeling better than I was when I wrote my last post. Let’s see, I posted last Sunday. Monday came, and I felt no better. To sum up a long story…I finally had my little break down or whatever you want to call it. I did not make it in to work pretty much the whole week.
After a talk with my other boss (the nice one), I went back to work. However, I am sticking to my guns. June is still the month I plan to, no I am going to leave. I am cutting the cords. It’s done.
Why June? Am I waiting for the stars to align or that perfect time to quit? Nope. June is just a convenient month to do it. It’s the summertime and the kids are out of school. It also helps that I have an actual job reference for potential landlords to call on because as you know, our credit isn’t the best right now and we need to move to a new place. It also gives me time to work on my writing and other stuff while working and getting a guaranteed paycheck.
Oh, did I mention? It gives me time to cash in my last vacation time before I lose it. Is it unethical? Nope. I don’t think so. A boss that walks up to you and tells you to “speak” is unethical and flat-out rude. Yup, he actually told me to speak like I was a dog or something. Naturally, I completely ignored the “command” until I was spoken to with more respect. If you think that one is bad…I got plenty. But why reminisce?
I can not tell you how sad, depressed, worthless I felt these past several months. Several years really. It all goes back to taking whatever I had to because I had so many bills and debt that I just could not afford to take the leap. I sure as heck can now.
You know the saying ” You Miss 100% of the Shots You Don’t Take”? That’s kind of where I am right now. Some people say if you don’t take action on certain things in your life, you regret those decisions 5,10,15…years later. It’s true. I regret many things every day. But I will not dwell. Luckily, I am still at an age where I can make life fun and exciting for me and my family.
Being debt-free makes it that much easier to do. No more depression, sadness, whatever you want to call it. No more “waiting for the right time”. There is never a right time. That is one thing I have learned out of this whole ordeal.
Well, until my next update…Have a great week everyone!
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